Time Keeps On Slippin'
Mood:  rushed
Topic: Family and Friends
I met up with an old friend for lunch yesterday and as we talked the subject of family came up. I was talking about how it would be fun next summer because Lauren will learn how to ride her bike without the training wheels when my friend asked how old Lauren was now. I said 4 and you could almost hear his jaw hit the table. He thought she was only 2 and a 1/2! He then went on to say that his twin nieces would be entering college this fall and I pointed out that they couldn't be because they had just been born not too long ago LOL! Continuing on with our topic of family, we realized that these children have grown up not knowing their grandmothers. Not one of my friend's nieces or nephews has ever met his mother and Lauren has never met my mother. We didn't even have to count - it will be 5 years for me and it's been 24 for him. Unbelievable! My God, I never thought it would ever be 5 years and I just can't imagine it will ever be 24! It is just unbelievable that that much time has passed.

Since both of us have lost both of our parents, we both admitted that we think about our own deaths more now than we ever did. For me, I just can't bear to think that some day it will be my turn and I will have to leave my little girl behind. Not only will I have to leave her behind, but she will be in pain and I won't be there to help her through it. No wonder my mom insisted my dad and I hold her hands when the end was near. She had always said she wasn't afraid and I believed her, but I'm sure she had a hard time leaving all the same...just as I will. God, I hope it never comes.